I’m here, just waiting for this chance to stop mugging chinese
now back to mugging chinese.
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I’ll keep you safe from danger
I’m here, back at one. I didn’t know some people’s thoughts about me, till today and I’m surprised. Sorry if I hurt anyone of you during sometimes when I’m not aware, when I didn’t even mean to. Sometimes I’m really passive when it comes to those things, and with all that stress coming down on me nowadays.
SMOPS was today, with me doing LOGISTICS for the third time, if you do include APMOPS last year. Sigh, why does it have to be like that, ALWAYS. and that joseph ‘-’ niao lah. Haha but one thing I’m glad is that I saw 7 teachers in 30 minutes yesterday, as said by Jiahui who was amazed by my ability, I was a superhuman.
…and I can’t believe I have overmaxed my IH ace already. YAY! Omg, mrs chan gave my group 5 ACE points for my Indonesia Colonialisation Website, and you can view it yourself on my subdomain link page (i think) 8D sorry It isn’t there (click here yourself)
with this new layout, I’m bringing a new mood of despondency. I can’t believe my CHEMISTRY test paper turned out a pathetic B3, sigh. Ms Boey, give me that 0.5 marks so I’d get my A2 Please. HAHA. it’s okay (i’d work even harder for a 30/30 for Acids Bases Salt) 8D Cause in my heart I know I have a good base of chemistry and that I should not fail just because of my nervousness. Continue to work hard man! *i’m like giving myself all the encouragement (none for you, bleah ;P haha)
I’m kinda like trying to mug Chinese but is like ALOT of mugging to do, I’m really scared. Mathematics should come back to me just fine, with my A1 intact + maybe more marks yarh? Like about 35/40. Cause I’m really confident this time, really. If you don’t believe then don’t. Joseph got stuck and I feel sad for him, I mean 9/40 marks gone just like that, that’s like losing a damned A1… Sigh. Joseph is a star pupil of Ms Pek…. Yah and we aren’t.
Joseph gets all the good things and I don’t. Sigh. Geog to revise cause I failed it during the MOCK test. I didn’t really study at all, only studied one piece of paper before falling asleep. That paper was faulting. WTH. haha and all came out earthquake hot spots then tsunami. LOL wth. I’m tired, let’s call it a day, shall we…?
I’ve been in the blues for a long time, I’ve been emoing over the same things for a million years, over and over again. It’s like a circle I can’t force myself to break, neither a white or black answer can assure me. They said I’d be there, I feel that no one’s gonna let me go higher. It’s like a never ending circle, until forever. I’ve been down and out, I’m now feeling that. I’ve been happy yet sad, I’ve been trying to find a million reasons why too. Maybe after one happening, can decide on this mood I’m having now.
I’ve put in my best for everything, I’ve been saving all my love, I’ve been trying to let it show, but no. No one recognises it, they think it’s just a facade- not real not true. Everyone’s centred around me in this blog post, about I, I’ve.
Comparing, they have shown their effort, proved themselves worthy. I feel… inferior, totally.
Can you understand how bad I’m feeling now, or you guys just wanna be there, look at me, when I’m down and all, no one comes and help me up anymore. I’m certainly gonna puke more blood if I ever worry about all these stuff and it’s utterly disgusting when you’ve slogged your hearts out, slogged it till no one sees it. That’s the bad part, that’s the crucial part, and no one sees it.
NO ONE except for the ones that stand by you.
I am for me, myself and I. What can these 3 people’s strength do at all to salvage the situation. I can’t fight fate. I can’t at all. So I’m still saving all my love for you.